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This life; some people may not understand. From what I see; that day everything changed; I felt deep within; from that day I saw more beauty in the world than I had ever seen before. I cherished every moment, found joy in the tiniest pleasures, for I understood this amazing gift called life.

Memories we shared together with Patrick; everything to me  felt different. I gloried in the time we spent together, knowing how precious it all was. Sometimes I would look up at the sky and watch the clouds shift and roll across the vibrant expanse of blue, and I wanted to weep from its sheer majesty. We lived in a beautiful world, and I felt so fortunate to have Patrick back in my life. I had learned that I was stronger than I ever imagined I was, and so was Patrick. He had fought a difficult battle. Imagine to leave your career as Pastor; to leave your wife; everything behind and come back to a woman with HIV positive; is not a joke.  He had become my hero. I respected and admired him– more than I ever respected or admired him before. I loved him more than I ever loved him before.

Even if there were no friends and family to help and support us;our love made us new friends, new family. We created it. Another world of our own. I felt truly blessed.

It may seem an odd thing to say, but I sometimes felt that HIV aids, even though it was

Painful that we will die some day, it had brought something good.  It had taught us so much about life and love. I had grown –so had he – and I knew that this change in us was very profound and would affect both our futures.